Finding God in the Meantime
Suffering, Sovereignty, Free Will, Faith, and Relational Joy
“For His anger is but for a moment, His favor is for a lifetime; weeping may stay the night, but with the morning comes joy.” — Psalm 30:5 (BSB)
We love the promises of God. We celebrate His miracles, rejoice in His deliverance, and testify to His faithfulness.
But what about the meantime?
Continue readingThe Gospel begins long before Bethlehem.
To understand what Jesus came to restore, we have to return to what humanity lost.
Adam was created human, bearing God’s image and enjoying fellowship with his Creator.
Then came a choice.
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God alone is perfectly sovereign.
He possesses complete macro authority over creation, history, life, death, eternity, truth, justice, wisdom, and ultimate outcomes. Nothing exists outside His providence, permission, knowledge, or sustaining power.
We humans, though made in His image, are certainly not God. He is nearer than we often realize, yet infinitely holy and set apart from us. Ahhhh, the paradox of this beautiful mess we know as life.
We do not choose when we are born, the family into which we arrive, or the era in which we live. Life is not ours to manufacture, discard, or ultimately control. This is one reason abortion is morally serious: it can usurp God’s authority over innocent human life. Likewise, suicide tragically abuses human agency against the sacredness of one’s own life. While fallen life involves painful and complex circumstances, the starting principle remains clear: life belongs to God, and we must treat it with reverence, humility, and care.
We must respect the limits of our humanity while trusting in the supernatural wisdom, power, and omniscience of God.
God alone is omniscient, omnipotent, perfectly holy, and complete as the one true God eternally existing in divine Trinity: Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
Yet within His sovereign framework, God has granted humanity meaningful responsibility and freedoms.
Because we bear His image, we possess reflections of His attributes: reason, creativity, morality, love, stewardship, self-awareness, will, and the ability to choose. These qualities are real, meaningful, and consequential, though finite and imperfect.
Thus, God establishes and maintains macro sovereignty and ultimate responsibility while granting humanity micro responsibility and personal stewardship.
Our choices matter.
Our thoughts matter.
Our attitudes matter.
Our actions matter.
But they are never ultimate above God’s; just ask Lucifer, Adam, and Eve.
Sin is the abuse and corruption of our God-given freedom whenever our thoughts, attitudes, desires, or actions drift from and fail to conform to God’s holy principles and precepts revealed through Scripture.
Humanity was fatally wounded by the Fall. Therefore all people are affected by sin and inevitably commit sin; born under sin’s condition, yet personally accountable as moral awareness awakens. The flesh pulls toward pride, selfishness, fear, lust, deception, laziness, bitterness, and rebellion against God’s design.
Thankfully, God’s love prevailed, and His pursuing grace and mercy chased after us.
Yet God’s Word does not call us to surrender to sin, but to flee from it, fight against it, confess it, and progressively overcome it through God’s grace and Spirit.
Apart from Christ, humanity remains spiritually separated from God and ultimately unable to overcome the dominion of sin in its deepest sense. But through the gospel of Jesus Christ, God regenerates, indwells, sanctifies, and transforms believers through the Holy Spirit.
Christians will not become perfectly sinless in this life, yet true spiritual growth should increasingly produce lives that sin less and reflect Christ progressively more as we “work out” the salvation God is “working in.”
Believers stand positionally justified through the imputed righteousness of Christ even while practical sanctification remains ongoing. One day glorification will complete what grace has begun, as the remaining dross of the flesh is finally removed. In the meantime, we should manifest our destiny in ways that glorify God.
Until then, life remains filled with tensions, paradoxes, and antinomies.
Strength and weakness.
Grace and effort.
Suffering and hope.
Sovereignty and responsibility.
Discipline and dependence.
Reality and faith.
Humans often err by embracing one side while denying the other. Some attempt to become their own gods through prideful self-determination. Others surrender responsibility through fatalism, cynicism, passivity, or despair.
Wisdom embraces both truth and tension.
Positive thinking alone does not create perfection because humans do not possess macro control. Yet negative thinking often produces unnecessary destruction, paralysis, fear, bitterness, and self-inflicted defeat.
The wise person therefore practices reality-based, solution-oriented, faith-filled thinking.
Not fantasy.
Not delusion.
Not denial.
But hopeful realism grounded in Providence.
Biblical hope does not deny hardship. It acknowledges suffering honestly while still choosing courage, gratitude, responsibility, disciplined effort, perseverance, humility, and trust in God.
We cannot control every storm, but we can often control how we respond within the storm.
This is an essential part of the manifestation of our destiny.
Not manifesting our own godhood.
Not speaking perfection into existence.
Not controlling the universe.
But cooperating with God’s design, aligning with truth, stewarding our gifts faithfully, and allowing godly thoughts, attitudes, actions, and habits to shape the direction and fruit of our lives.
We plant.
We water.
God gives the increase.
Therefore we seek to think truthfully, live purposefully, and act faithfully.
We reject both arrogant self-sovereignty and helpless passivity.
We pursue disciplined improvement without prideful striving.
We seek FLOW without illusion.
We embrace responsibility without pretending omnipotence.
We strive for excellence while surrendering ultimate control to God.
Let us think SMARTER, work HARDER, become BETTER, and live the abundant life of FLOW whenever God grants it.
For we are wonderful yet imperfect creations.
He alone is the perfect Creator.
And our highest destiny is not self-exaltation, but faithful alignment with truth, love, wisdom, humility, and the will of God—for His glory and the genuine good of others.
This is the true manifestation of our destiny.

Here is a song I wrote and published. Click below to listen to my song
# MACRO SOVEREIGN · MICRO FREE
## Verse 1
I didn’t choose where and when I was born
Or the family name I was called to adorn
Didn’t pick the times or the skin I’m in
But I woke up breathing, so I’ll begin
Some days strong, some days scared
Sometimes faithful, sometimes impaired
But there’s a Voice through the chaos and noise
Saying, “Son, you still got a choice”
## Pre-Chorus
I can’t calm those nasty storms
Can’t control the wind, being torn
But I can choose who I trust
And who I’m gonna be within
## Chorus
He is our Macro Sovereign
We are His Micro Free
I can’t control the whole wide world
But I’ve got responsibility
Manifesting my destiny
By aligning my heart with truth
Not becoming my own makeshift king
But seeking God’s glory in everything
Thinking SMARTER
Working HARDER
Getting BETTER day by day
Finding FLOW when the Father makes a way
We plant, we water
God gives the increase
He is our Macro Sovereign
We are His Micro Free
## Verse 2
Sin’ll take your freedom, twist it into chains
Turn pride into prisons and pleasure into pain
Yeah the flesh keeps pulling, but the Spirit calls
To stand back up every time we fall
Ain’t nobody perfect this side of the sky
But mercy keeps meeting me right where I fight
And little by little the dirty dross burns away
As Heaven keeps shaping this dusty jar of clay
## Pre-Chorus
Life’s a paradox
Faith inside a great mystery
Grace and effort both inspire
Walking on the narrow wire
## Chorus
He is our Macro Sovereign
We are His Micro Free
I don’t own tomorrow
But today belongs to me
Manifesting my destiny
With humility and grace
Trusting God to guide my steps
Even when I can’t see the way
Thinking SMARTER
Working HARDER
Becoming BETTER through the fight
Finding FLOW when surrender meets the light
We’re wonderful yet broken
Still becoming who we’ll be
He is our Macro Sovereign
We are His Micro Free
## Bridge
Not fantasy
Not denial
Not pretending life’s alway fair
Just hopeful realism
Knowing Providence is there
Macro sovereign God
Micro choices mine
I don’t control forever
But I can live today aligned
## Final Chorus
He is our Macro Sovereign
We are His Micro Free
That tension and that paradox
Are part of humanity
Manifesting my destiny
For His glory, not my fame
Trying to love God and people well
And honor Jesus’ name
Thinking SMARTER
Working HARDER
Becoming BETTER in His grace
And living that FLOW
Not perfection
Just progression day to day
We plant, we water
God gives the increase
He is our Macro Sovereign
We are His Micro Free
## Outro
Yeah I don’t control the whole wide world
But I can choose who I become
And when the dust of this life settles
May I hear Him say, “Well done.”
It’s impossible to beat God at His own game called Life for He rules over this physical life and also eternal life. He is omniscient, omnipotent, and omnipresent.
God no doubt works in mysterious ways for his ways or higher and different than ours. There are times when He works in ways that are impossible for us to comprehend in our current state.
“For as the heavens are higher than the earth,
Isaiah 55:9
so My ways are higher than your ways
and My thoughts than your thoughts.
Ultimately, our faith has a firm foundation however there are times when it requires us to trust Him unequivocably.
satan and his evil minions are still at work. For some reason, God permits their presence in our world. It’s for His glory and our free will that He permits evil to exist. Since the near the beginning of time when Cane killed Abel with a rock, people have been killing each other and Satan has been deceiving and messing with people minds in regard to what is just and right.
Case in point is Charles assassin.
According to court documents, Tyler Robinson’s parents said that they asked their son why he shot Charlie Kirk, to which he replied, “there is too much evil and the guy spreads too much hate.”
The Bible tells us, “Woe to those who call evil good and good evil” (Isaiah 5:20). Jesus Himself calls Satan “a murderer from the beginning … and the father of lies” (John 8:44).
We live in a world that is warped by sin, and so many people are deceived. Let me be clear—speaking what the Bible says is not hate. Charlie Kirk wasn’t hating anyone when he answered question after question on campus after campus with truth from the Word of God. Life-altering, soul-saving truth that hasn’t changed since the beginning of time. Who spewed hate? The shooter. All Charlie Kirk did was love his Lord Jesus Christ and love young people enough to give them the truth, even about hard subjects like gender, marriage, abortion, and much more.
Franklin Graham
Charlie was killed not because he spoke hate or mistruth rather it’s because hateful people did not like his words of truth. He had a proper balance of speaking truth in love; a sad fact that some people just can’t handle the truth because it’s contrary to their perverted lifestyles.
The ultimate war is not a physical one, but one that’s invisible for read:
For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this world’s darkness, and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.
Ephesians 6:12
In this regard, Charlie was a mighty crusader for truth particularly on behalf of our youth.
Charlie Kirk died as a mighty martyr in front of the whole world, doing his thing. Our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ also was killed publicly without just cause as well as 11 out of 12 of Christ’s disciples.
Make no mistake, Charlie is with our dear Lord and Savior in heaven, with the crown of glory given unto Jesus Christ, who was the ultimate martyr and it’s by his blood, we are saved, which Charlie knew full well.
as God used the old rugged cross of death for His glory and the well-being of mankind, be assured, He will not waste this opportunity to further His kingdom for the good of believers across the world.
Charles organization Turning Point USA had 1100 high school groups and 900 college groups prior to his death. Less than a week later, they have received over 50,000 applications for new groups. No doubt Charlie’s name recognition and his cause are greater now than ever, and most importantly that of Jesus Christ.
if you haven’t seen his wife’s Erica Kirk’s speech less than 48 hours after her husband killing, it’s powerful and a must watch.
This singer nailed it on this song:
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and watch her speech here:
https://youtu.be/gz6cvq9e4tY?feature=shared
Jack Dempsey: “Nobody owes anybody a living, but everybody is entitled to a chance. I was a miner and I was a cowboy but mostly I was a hobo. I fought wherever I could, in school halls, outside saloons, any place they were putting up a purse. I once walked thirty miles across the desert to a town called Goldfield in Nevada so I could fight for twenty dollars.
“I got beat a lot. I improved, but I remember the beatings I took. Once got beat so bad they had to take me out of the ring in a wheelbarrow. I was a pretty good fighter. But it was the writers who made me great.
“I took out other guys quick. That much is true. I got more one round knockouts than anybody, sixty knockouts in the first round. I beat a good Heavyweight in New Orleans once in fourteen seconds. I knocked out Fred Fulton, six-foot-four, 250 pounds, in nineteen seconds. How come? Not because I was a killer, other way round, I was always afraid that l’d be the one who was killed. Get them quick and you live to fight another day.”
Daniel Cormier – UFC Hall of Fame
“Superman was born from heartbreak—not just imagination.” 💔🦸♂️
In 1932, when I was just a teenager, my father was killed during a robbery at his small clothing store in Cleveland. There were no superpowers. No capes. No one came to save him. That tragedy left a mark on my soul.
Soon after, I began writing about a different kind of man—one who could stop bullets. Who could protect the innocent. A man of strength and justice who stood for what I wished the world had more of. That’s when Superman took shape in my mind.
But creating him wasn’t the hardest part.
For years, Joe Shuster and I poured our hearts into bringing Superman to life. We faced rejection after rejection. Editors laughed at the idea of “an alien in tights.” We scraped together pennies to afford stamps and envelopes to keep sending out our pitch.
When someone finally said yes, they paid us $130. That was it. We unknowingly signed away all rights to Superman. The world got a hero. We got a receipt.
As Superman soared, we struggled. Joe and I could barely pay rent. Depression crept in. Decades passed as we fought for recognition—battling for credit, for dignity, for survival.
Only in the 1970s, after public outcry and industry pressure, did DC Comics agree to provide a modest pension and begin giving us credit. But by then, Joe was nearly blind… and nearly forgotten.
Behind the hero’s cape was our quiet tragedy.
People saw Superman. Few saw the young men who created him out of pain and hope. But maybe that’s the real heart of heroism: not just flying high, but enduring the lows no one sees.
— Jerry Siegel, co-creator of Superman (adapted in tribute)
This is a great example of how ‘purpose’ often leads to success more than the desire for money. The money is important but it should be secondary as to what prompts people do great things. – Kirk
We can either be the domestic Cow, brave Buffalo or bad Bull. Bison 🦬 up and be the Buffalo.
Nature is rich with examples of animals responding to adversity in fascinating and often inspiring ways. These behaviors often carry deep metaphorical and even spiritual insights, much like the buffalo facing the storm.
🐄 Cows: Tendency to Move Away from Storms
Domesticated cows are often observed to move away from approaching storms. Ironically, by trying to outrun the storm, they can end up spending more time in it, since they move in the same direction the storm is traveling. This is frequently used as a metaphor for avoidance-based behavior—trying to escape pain or hardship but unintentionally prolonging the suffering.
🦬 Buffalo (Bison): Facing the Storm
American bison have been observed to turn and face into storms, often tightening their herd formation. By facing the storm and moving into it, they reduce the amount of time they spend in the worst of it. This behavior has inspired metaphors of courage, resilience, and embracing challenges head-on.
This image is often used in leadership, coaching, and spiritual development to say:
“Be like the buffalo—don’t run from hardship; face it, go through it, and come out stronger on the other side.”
⚠️ Scientific Note
This analogy is not universally confirmed by extensive ethological studies, so while it’s based on some real behaviors, especially among plains bison, it’s best seen as a powerful parable rather than a rigid zoological fact.
Here are some other powerful examples of animals that embody unique responses to hardship, danger, or challenge—with potential life and leadership parallels:
🦅 1. Eagles Fly Into Storms
Eagles are known to use storm winds to soar higher, rather than flee from them. They lock their wings and ride the updrafts caused by turbulent air to rise above the storm clouds.
Lesson: Face adversity to rise above it. Storms don’t have to bring you down—they can lift you to new heights if you engage them with faith and strategy.
🐍 2. Snakes Shed Their Skin
Snakes regularly shed their outer skin to allow for growth or healing. The process is vulnerable, slow, and even dangerous—but essential to their development.
Lesson: Growth often requires letting go of the old, even when it’s uncomfortable or leaves us exposed. We must shed outdated habits, perspectives, or identities to become who we’re meant to be.
🐘 3. Elephants Form a Protective Circle
When facing threats—especially to their young—elephants form a circle around the vulnerable, facing outward. They tighten community bonds in times of adversity and defend each other fiercely.
Lesson: In storms of life, don’t isolate—form a circle. Protect the weak, stand shoulder to shoulder, and face challenges as a united front.
🐜 4. Fire Ants Build Living Rafts
In floods, fire ants will interlock their bodies to create a floating raft, protecting the queen and colony. They survive together by literally becoming the solution.
Lesson: Resilience often requires sacrificial cooperation. True community is when we carry each other through what would otherwise drown us.
🐟 5. Salmon Swim Upstream
Salmon return to their birthplace to spawn, swimming upstream against strong currents and overcoming obstacles like waterfalls. Their journey is exhausting and dangerous—but it’s about legacy, life, and purpose.
Lesson: Your calling may require courageous, upstream effort. Purpose often lies on the other side of resistance, not in ease.
🐝 6. Bees Regulate Hive Temperature
Bees collectively beat their wings or huddle together to maintain optimal hive temperature—even in extreme heat or cold. They instinctively adjust to protect the queen and brood.
Lesson: A thriving group adjusts collectively to protect its mission. Leaders must be attuned to the internal climate and respond wisely.
🐢 7. Turtles Retreat to Survive—but Still Move Forward
Turtles withdraw into their shells when threatened, but they can’t live there. Eventually, they must stick their necks out again to move forward.
Lesson: Retreat can be wise—but permanent withdrawal is paralysis. Courage is putting your head back out and taking another step
🌳 8. Trees in Windy Environments
Trees in harsh, windy climates often develop deeper roots and stronger trunks. Without resistance, they remain shallow and weak.
Lesson: Life’s winds don’t just threaten you—they strengthen your foundation, if you stay rooted.